forget you.

2011-12-05T08:33:00.001-08:00

Today nver been so quiet every single living person around seems so strange, nonetheless I know because they are strangers

2011-09-20T10:19:00.000-07:00

GREAT I'VE FINALLY PLANNED WHAT AM I GONNA DOOOO LIAOOO!

- Gonna work hard save hard definitely because i wanna save i mean it! save till i got the money again to book my air flight to Krabbi and Phuket so that i could have a 2 week enjoy getaway so that i could leave this Singapore which is full of stress ;x

-Quit drinking, having fun because i wanna stop all my nonsense i dont wanna waste anymore time of just getting wasted BUT ALSO I WANNAT TRASH some haters just to prove im totally not for you to look down on. Well? whats else COMEON EVERYONE IS NOT BORN TO LET YOU LOOK DOWN ON OKAY DAMN YOU.

-Relationship, Well this part im trying real hard to put in all my effort as for him if he does leave me like how he used to & those nonsense i created yes i do wanna get married and be with him. i really do please do no suspect my love for me because if i really dont no treat this seriously why did i get back with him? why should i anyway just because of that incident? that stupid relationship i thought i couldnt get over with? no way myself in my heart i know this is no way puppy love, it's me and his together us our love.

-Saving money to get a better life for my family, at least i dont wanna people gossiping about my family about my mom anymore, i dont want people to be unrespectful to mummy never ever again.

- ME ME ME ME SHOP SHOP AND NO MORE POOR POVERTY LIFE ANYMORE BITCH.

End of the story gonna update again soon.

2011-08-30T01:16:00.001-07:00

Ok! Today is the third day which baby is admitted to the hospital I wanna go back badly, the worst thing is baby is stucked with a guy which actually do his shit, everything on his bed wtf so disgusting and he smells. I shouldn't discriminated him but then I couldn't stand him. Seeing baby so in pain definitely I'm worried. I'm just hope he wouldnt be in this situation ever again. Poor him, didn't eaten for 2 days and suffer pain if Im him guess I would have complain make a huge fuss and mess the whole nurse and hospital up.

So true.

2011-08-08T23:26:00.001-07:00

When I was a kid, I didn't have a laptop, iPod, Blackberry , PS3 or iPad. I played outside with friends, bruised my knees, made up adventurou s fantasies and played hide and seek. I ate what my mom made and KFC was a treat. I would think twice before I said "no" to my parents. Life wasn't hard, it was great and I survived. Kids these days are too spoilt. Re-post this if you appreciate the way you were raised. I think we were happier kids :)
Kids these days lost something - Appreciation.

This is what I found on Facebook. Everyone is reposting about this little story. Well what I think about this is awfully truth and that is what I can't deny..

What can I say? Life is so unfair,

Together again.

2011-08-01T09:24:00.001-07:00

Hi! As you can see I'm back together with him again.. I hope this time I would messed up our relationship nor he went missing someday again though in between our lives went separated ways but it's a miracle how it went back smoothy again when we met.. Maybe I'm silly maybe I'm foolish but still it's hard to let go once you really put in effort. Maybe because you invested alot that's why or maybe because you gave him alot your everything that's why or maybe because there's some secrets, some reason that's important to you that's why. Well I just want everyone to know, if there's some special reason.. Than go for it because you might never know what's gg on. He might be that special one, might be the prince.

I hope this time my decision is the right one I made.

2011-08-01T09:08:00.001-07:00

I'm like so done with pretending damn I don't really care who the hell is reading anyway! I just pissed off somehow. Pissed because people around me love to flaunt around how fucking rich their family is how fucking stupid their welfare is how stupid well done their family is doing how many stupid branded they have and how often they change your pretty little expensive things they always got for themselves using their wealthy parent's money. Fuck, though fuck my life fuck why my family ain't like them fuck the envy but honestly fuck them who's always flaunting.

It's always unfair, been so unfair about the family part because my family wasn't perfect we quarreled fought and got messed up all the time. But now? When I slowly growing up now isn't my family, it's everyone who's being such bitchy to me, because they flaunt alot. I don't blamed my family for giving me this lifestyle, I blamed those ass for being so realistic.. Im not trying to attract attention but this where I can blast out openly and peacefully!!!

2011-07-28T11:11:00.001-07:00

Feeling real depressed, moody swingy now maybe from yesterday already started.don't feel well oh gosh how to stop what I'm really feeling right now:(

2011-07-25T20:25:00.001-07:00

ผมรักคุณและก็แน่นอนจริง

With love leilaani lim.

2011-07-21T05:51:00.001-07:00

Dreaming is believing, it's ok to be not ok at all.doesn't matter if you're losing because you are who you are.

Been listening to the same old who you are-Jessie J. Well what can I say she practically the best singer who creates her own lyrics, why do I say so, she is original she don't copy others,she definitely have her own style nonetheless she makes awesome cool meanful song. Heheheheeh guess I have nothing to do beside updating about how cool Jessie J is. Hahahahhaah kkkkkk updating more later I want party:((((( didnt party for quite a mean while. Okkkkkkkk please help me psycho someone to party with me!!! Brb kkkkk<3

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2011-07-19T04:22:00.001-07:00

Honestly I missed those times when we spend out time wasting doing nothing enjoying fooling around without vexing about money nor studies. But now? Wtf I'm always frustrated over small issues.

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2011-07-08T15:20:00.000-07:00

July6 10.30am Well I guess I'm leaving it doing whatever it should does, I don't want to bother nor put it any effort anymore after getting high hopes and fallen deeper than here I started with, I'm tired of pursuing it and getting disappointed again.. Blaming myself for being so stupid.
3.45pm.
Till now I still don't understand how can I whine so much about him. Don't understand.. Why he means so much to me when I'm nothing to him

2011-06-28T10:37:00.000-07:00

Hey!! Finally I'm here to blog again after for so long though I might have neglected my deadly blog for so long but I've missed being a blogger myself! I mean blogging about my tragic life is part of it but still there's many happy memories I wished to blog about but I guess I was too busy with my work:( shopping duh!!! And partying recently of cause.

Updating soon with party pictures and definitely blog about what's goofing happening stuffs Hehehehe see you all asssssss! :)

2011-06-27T07:29:00.000-07:00

Seeing things could be deceiving I guess it has always been maybe believing in what you always had faith in it's all fake not true at all. Standing infront of my own reflection I realize it's perfectly fine to be not ok at all.
Just another simple day thy passes by slowly.. I'm frustrated because why is he still in my mind too many memories, we done so much together and yet. I used to get wasted for him but now Im only wasted for myself every relationship was bullshit but only his was precious only his was perfect to me.he didn't know my tears so I shouldn't be crying for him anymore because he's not there for me, his shoulder ain't specially for me already.
Now I only want yo quiet down and forget everything, finally I started only now I started to let go slowly I didn't want to rush things around but I'm really exhausted, I'm tired being so stupid because of him tired of making a fool out o myself because of him. Tired of crying Till my eyes are awfully swollen because of him,

If there's really a hypnotizing therapy please help me to get over all these memories I dont want to remember.

2011-04-24T20:59:00.001-07:00

I'm going through that path I'm alone here. And I miss him wishing he would pick up the phone but he made a decision about moving on. I was wrong, thought there's a little chance. Before watching him with another replacement.

2011-04-23T23:21:00.001-07:00

Honestly I feel like crying

2011-04-23T21:51:00.000-07:00

We spend out lives telling ourselves that everything happens For a reason. When in reality it's just that we give reasons for everything that happens-unknown

2011-04-17T08:04:00.001-07:00

Remember it's not a love story, it just another tragic story who just wanted to warn about be caution towards love. Being careful, it just another bitch who dump him the old lame story.

The movie 500 days of summer, somehow strike me deeply, I never thought of imagining myself like the male lead.

Never thought I would be like him,so deeply madly fallen in love. Keep thinking, reflecting about this same old shit i shouldn't think, i try to fix my mind about whatever I used to think whatever I advised before, i used to thought why are my friends so stupid why aibt they not listening? but than it's all fucking useless it doesn't work at all when it happen, and now I understand how love broken truly feels like.

These sentences reflected around my brain. Why am i missing the old memories,Why am I holding on to the happy moments, what about the unhappy ones. Will I stare in space thinking about how to get him back? When ever we quarrel he used to pull me back and we kissed thats how we patch up he used to used over me, remembering how I was insane over the taiwan drama"queen of no marriage" he bought the DVD when he went out, will I keep rehearsing about our memories whenever he's not around? will I get desperate about our love, how sweet it used to be.Dreaming about what's he doing next, imagining how much he missing me, how tight he used to hug me,how lovely he fetched me from work, how crazy he was about me, how adorable he is when he kissed me and say he can't sleep without me can't live without me, how he protect me from falling,how he feed me when he know I'm hungry,how often he bring me for movies how he pampered me when he know I need shopping session badly, show he want me to be happy,he took care of me when I don't feel well I vomits every single thing and he tried to get me whatever I feel like eating, how it all used to be. But everyone know that kind of ending only fairy tales end this shit this way.. In reality it doesn't work this way even a three year old kid knows that. Can't imagine that I'm even worse and stubborn shit than a kid

In the movie this is how it goes like this right before changed he met she? And then the male lead.. He was very attracted by summer oh gosh i forgot whats the male lead name what about leaving it as nic? Nic met Summer in work where she was a newly hired crew in some post card work place one day summer was invited to the party where everyone was gonna attend and this was a fantastic timing for nic to woo summer. At the party was a totally shit where drunkard was everywhere suddenly nic was approached by summer and Thannnnnn hehehe. My boyfriend was approached by me as well he was such a nerddddy suck in love. He loved me I mean like used to and he pamper me like I'm the little princess once again feel kinda kiddy you know? I thought daddy was the wall who's blocking us together and end up it wasn't what I thought it would be.. Well? He so sweet, sweeter than any guy I thought he would be.he bought me whatever I want I say I wanna go swimming anyway whatever I want he would simply grant my wish like a fairy godmother. But happy ending doesn't last.

Heres the sad part ladies:everything changed when the female lead wanna broke up with the male lead and knowing what's the reason? She just finding someone who's accompanying her, thinking he's not exciting enough, cause love not true, not at all. To her: Love just like a santa claus Who doesnt exist. Then his life fall apart before this tragic happen he thought she truly love him he thought everything gonna be alright, he thought she gonna marry him, he thought it's gonna end in a happily ever after.he thought shes the one that's why..

Same goes to me HAHA I thought it all end like how the male lead thought it would be, but HELL no. It didn't, I realize this is then the beginning my nightmare just started hey wanna know what? I didnt know this shit gonna happen to me when I live my life without any stress hell no I didn't expect my life gonna be like this nor thought my life gonna end up in sucha stress and painful way. I always chided my Friends mummy or cousin or family whoever was hurt or hurt at that meanwhile I advise them why being so stupid cause I'm a good example without love stress ? But no, it because I didn't experience heartbroken before.. C'mon no one gonna expect thus coming right?

After the part male lead's sister told him; why keep remembering the happy ones? Dint you forget about what she have done to you? What happen to those unhappy ones, stop skipping those moment you don't wanna recall. Well? This is the part where I wanna elaborate about how I really felt.. I cried many time but couldn't remember what I even cried for? The only deeper impression ones are like? He left me in the operation room, left me alone facing my mother? And one more, almost kill me by slapping the hell outta me, theathening me by committing suicide and on and on. Wouldn't wanna go on cause I'm gonna cry if I'm gonna continue this shit I wanna forget. Ending up I begged him not to leave me and finally he goes on soft hearted and give me a stranger feel hug and somehow I feel so out, like I'm hugging a stranger.

So hot and cold the weirdest feeling I ever felt isn't it I wonder ever wonder about giving up but I know I will turn back to him when I tried leaving. I'm Depress in fact I'm very but what else can I do because I don't wanna leave by crying so pathetic and wanting to commit suicide hell no but what's wrong with these emotions? Thought he's near very near to being the right one and he spoils everything. Verbally warning physically warning I have received I don't wanna be like my mommy and daddy who pretending all day long. They wanna pretend, I don't know who's the audience, definitely I don't wanna be one of the character who's in the show of only where we please the audience. Here I'm in the staircase the good things is I dont know where am I? I just sitting down here crying and typing these crap my life sucha asshole my work bitchy about me my relationship turns out a shit. What on earth can I do? Great! All the best to me. Sitting down here like an idiot who thought lifes is happy life great even if I fall out with mommy I thought my boyfriend would be there at least for me only for me. Now I know I'm wrong totally wrong heartbroken only kills me why people say working or whatever isn't hard because being human, controlling our own emotions is even harder.

We fight quarrel we injured each other, shouted hurtful words. All I wanted is his words, caring ones which can cure my saddess, my scars love.

Though some friends told me if I love him than endure all these shit, if I don't leave him. and some other friends told me why should I hold on when hes trying to break loose and getting rid you right? He doesn't want you anymore when bother.

In my heart I'm also like this, why bother.. But I can't. I know I can't.

Right now, I keep getting myself wasted. Never want to get sober because sober only can make me feel even more miserable. I called him, spam testing him. Why isn't he reply? I don't know, people asked me what's wrong with me am I stupid what? But I blamed myself for not doing my best he's the one. I never been so insane about a guy before not even my first love. I feel like dying. I know we can't be like how we used to be, I don't care about doing my best even if hes gone, cuz I know I can't live without him. I keep crying, slapping myself why am I this stubborn. But all hear couldn't work. I promised my friends I would get over this mother fucker but I can't. Its not about him anymore it'd about getting over him, knowing hes not gonna be there. I walked around hoping I would have bump into him but I realize he's not there anymore. He was never there.

This man made it so hard to let go. I wonder will I ever be like him? Given up the women he once loved and let it go.

I hope to be like the male lead getting over with her leaving summer and have new autumn.

empty.

2010-12-30T05:07:00.001-08:00

Boredddddd, I guess I've nothing to update cause I'm workinggggg

2010-12-11T01:42:00.000-08:00

Went to NEX/Serangoon after my admin interview, Didnt manage to shop because the shopping centre was in a mess. Every few stops we just would pass by a resturant so we just dont know where to start nor where to go If the shopping mall could be more organized i guess it would be even better. If not we shopper dont know where to start from isnt it? Sqeezeeeee all the way because it was damn damn damn crowded.

high hopes.

2010-12-10T19:15:00.001-08:00

I wonder will they call me when they say they're gonna call. So anxious, why not they just tell me straight.

two hearts.

2010-12-09T10:10:00.001-08:00

I'm over/ totally crazy over street fighter right now, I've been playing every single night just to practice my skills so that I could play even better than baby! Hahahhaa awesome isn't it. Pleaseeeee god train me even harder so that I could win everyone! Nah. U guys wouldn't understand how stressed I'm right now, being so serious right now. I'm stucked with Despression Hahahha totally, I hope I'm not gonna die.

hi!

2010-12-09T00:32:00.001-08:00

I found a app is completely free which I could freely update my blog whenever I like. Well I could say it's even better and easier than blogpress! I'm trying to get a hang of it right now. Kinda interesting hee

2010-12-05T09:09:00.000-08:00

Basically im trying to update my craps just to revive my blog from being dead because im waiting for my n levels results and definately my stupid slow pay. Exactly because im not able to do anything without my money ); so im stucked at home using iphone and lappy non-stop like some greek i have ever been im have trying so hard to make myself less miserable already. What else ? update again. bye

2010-12-02T12:10:00.000-08:00

I feel sort of Shittydefinitely because my boyfriend went missing while I'm sleeping.

2010-11-27T21:49:00.001-08:00

When two people are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear them apart.
“Its funny how the people who hurt me the most are the ones who swore they never would.”

Because I'm Working hard to clear everything right now so I could enjoy a soon as possible. Damn if I knew it's gonna happen I won't create all these trouble. Mummy I assure this isn't gonna happen for the second time &&& I promise um gonna spit out all my money to celebrate your birthday! Hahhahaha old women!! Love you naggy one. I hoped this year's birthday will make you happy and the best cause you have me celebrating with you.

2010-11-26T08:18:00.001-08:00

“If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.”

Recently I got a new job, well thanks to Regine:) I'm glad I got her back. Since mummy's birthday coming alreadyyyyy I'm gonna get her birthday present! What should I get? Though I know that thoughts that counts!

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2010-11-20T08:41:00.001-08:00

I changed my job already, well it's kinda stupid though. Unreasonable crazy fuckedup show off bitch_l_

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2010-11-17T19:26:00.001-08:00

I'm busy working these days, wondering when I can study again.. Saving so hard for my new wallet:(

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2010-11-06T09:05:00.000-07:00

Sheesha is my recent activity. LOL

2010-10-16T01:53:00.000-07:00

Updatingggggzxzxzxz.
Yesterday it's our payday so today im gonna get alllllllll my pretty clothes or should i get my extensions back? Branded goods or trendy clothes from fareast? so many options and yet im like soooooooooo fickle minded.
Update again when i got pictures and also about today!@$%^&*
April's gonna open a nail shop at fareast SO DAMN COOL CAN :x
i'll update about her store as well ESPECIALLY HER DISCOUNTS! hehehehe. better support ah

Hould i pamper myself or get stuffs to pamper my stupid boyfriend.?

Halloween Night.

2010-10-08T12:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night we went to night safari & there's Joey,Deon Boyfriend & me ! well we went to the haunted village first! before going there we was so excited about taking scary photos with those scary characters walking around at the main entrance. After walking the haunted village, we pass by many interesting shops.. seriously there's one stupid chinese ghostly character scare the hell outta me. OMG But at least the four of us did enjoy !!@%^&* hahaha.LOok at the pictures we took!

2010-09-27T01:53:00.000-07:00

Back to vivo already, i'm done with blogging.

I guess i'll leave till i've time to blog or find someone's comp to blog about my life. hehe guess maybe when oct starts than i'll update.. stay tuned(:

Together.

2010-09-24T04:53:00.000-07:00

I'm so sickkkkkkkkkk. My head's like heavy and gidddddyzxxzxzx klahhhxzxxzx reward me with sweeetssssxzxzxzxz

Thoughtful.

2010-09-19T05:18:00.001-07:00

Have been a seriously damn crazy for me recently, I'm glad things have been getting better. Alright I'm watching cartoon on Channel 5 HEHE VERY CUTE & entertaining Well i've been staying over boyfriend's house like for few days. Not really that boredddddzxxzx but at least he's accompanying me right? I hope the next weekend fast forward soon, so that i wouldn't like miss him for the pass few days within the week.
I wanna have Mac's breakfast everyday but somehow i manage to eat it only when i'm with boyfriend ): i couldn't wakeup no matter how hard i tried. ARGHGHZXXZZ

Reflection.

2010-09-14T03:53:00.000-07:00

Baby i love you.

Though we end the fight already, still please let it be the last time. The last thing i ever wanted it to happen is we quarrel, please be a understanding boyfriend HEHE. Klahloveyoubyeeexzxz.

Day dream.

2010-09-11T16:05:00.000-07:00

Been sleeping quite awhile, but seems like I couldn't make it. Early in the morning what can I do? Arghghghghzxz craving of Mac's breakfast!!! But what's he best for me because I'm on diet as wellllllll. Guess better stop gorging myself with deluxe meal already:( what's on the menu today?
Why do I have negative thoughts? Your presence was so strong, I almost thought that you were there, why am I afraid? Maybe I'm afraid, or should I say I'm ashamed.

Edit/.

After waiting for 30mins, Mac have finalllllllyyyxzxzxxz came already..... I order a egg Mcmuffin i suppose it's spelled like this WELL ! this isn't what I'm suppose to elaborate hehe

THE MARGARINE WAS LIKE ALL OVER THE PLASTIC BAG D: made my fingers so oily. Gz was having his little Hotcakes with sausage his sweet tooth just couldn't leave him alone he have to eat sweet stuffs every single day with his complains about getting fatter everyday. Can't be blamed right?

Kinda bored, i've been staying home for so many many uncountable days finally i caught residence evil at vivo last night or the night before i forgot.

The nacho cheese downgrade so muchhh, the cheese kinda weird when i say weird it's taste awfully weird. WELLLLLXZXXZX, My plans had decided.. I've to look for work after "N" levels examination.

Wish me the best of luck for everything alright readers.

You aint a past because you are a part of me.

2010-09-11T06:06:00.000-07:00

Currently i'm setting up a new blog again, the main reason i deleted it well it's because i wanna start everything anew.
It's totally uncool but i still wanna say it if we let go the relationship that's easily it doesnt call love already isnt it. Somehow after the incident which stucked me woken me up, but it didn't hurt me hard enough.But to think of it, if love doesnt hurt me it isn't love right.

I'm living in hell for this past few months the freaking terrible feeling alike of hell seriously I thought I'm almost dead but the little you made me feel like someone i've never feel before, the little angel of you made me miss you. You're a past but never a memory because i know you will be there. Be there for me isnt it, baby. Knowing you're ok right now with pretty angels taking care of you, mummy love you as much how you loved me. Bless me would you,Have you recieve the praying i've been telling you little angel? hope you pass a little message to little baby. Could you little one,bless your little mummy who's missing you on earth.

This decision i made, please dont blame me alright.

Today i stay at one corner and reflect myself like a kiddo who's doing it's punishment. I've been thinking and thinking, reminding myself what else can i do? beside blaming myself/